phew

my mid-terms are over. but nothing to be happy about. Its time to rush two major reports, then comes my final exams.
I feel like I can't breathe. But im thankful for the little break that I have after my paper today. A little time for me to let loose and not think and worry bout anything concerning school or work.
Ended up playing mahjong. wheeee....
I wonder why am I so broke all the time. when I haven spent a lot of money recently. pay came and gone just like that. Total bills came up 900+ boohoohoo. to make matters worse, increments and promotions will be put on hold. this totally sucks. but i guess I juz gotta be glad that I still have a job? when i really really dun really feel like working? I dunnoe. Im tired, and confused. and awfully stressed.
Im just looking forward to end April. GOd, give me strength and perseverence.

Anxious

My mid-term exams are starting this week and I have not started studying. Instead Im at work. It sucks to be a part time student with a full time job. Bleah.
Pls hurry hurry.... get me through this 2 months.

Temptations

I really wanna go for a holiday. I wanna go on a road trip. Drive around Australia on our own. I tink it will be pretty fun. Tiring but still fun.

I totally forgot that I needed to do research. All I can tink of now is HRE (Human Resource Economics). I have always been very lousy at maths and now I gotta do econs. Bleah~! i feel so sian ah.

Still considering to head down to Zouk tonite. But I promised myself, today no matter what I need to study. At least a little..... as if it will make a difference. But at least I wun feel guilty right?

Im goin to play my pet now. again.

Addicted

Im addicted to 2 things at the moment.

Firstly Im addicted to Mahjong. I keep wanting to play.

Secondly, Im addicted to Facebook's Pet Society. My pet is soooo cute.

I can't help myself from playing with my pet everyday. I wanna buy so many things for my pet. Can somebody pls buy the maid's bonnet for me pls.....

When weekend comes, Mahjong seems to always be part of our plans.

But I guess Im happy everyday. I can't imagine myself clubbing every weekend anymore. its boring to me already. Same ol shit. Prolly clubbed too much last time. Or maybe im juz getting old. I rather hang out with frens on the weekend over coffee. Wake up early the next morning for bfast.

Or play MJ till early in the morning, laughing and enjoying each other's company. It great! Its totally the perfect way to past time, Im comfortable at home. No need to spend money. Superb.

Facebook is such a poweful tool which enables me to source out all the potential MJ kakis out there. Wheeee...

2 more months of school. From next week onwards, it will be the most stressful time for me with mid-terms, presentations, projects, and of course my final exams. And not forgetting that I still gotta work.

Kenneth will be goin back to Tekong soon. =(

I can' t wait. I can't wait. I can't wait to go home.

.....

I've been playing MJ quite often recently. I have to admit Im a little hooked on it despite being absolutely terrible in it. But I believe with practise, I can do it~! All I need is my Hello Kitty MJ tiles to motivate me. hee hee.

Kenneth brought me shopping today so I could spend some money after controlling my shopaholic urges for so long. I had fun walking around Suntec City, looking at clothes and shoes. There is just something about shopping malls that cheers me up. Wanted to catch a movie, but was tempted by the offer of MJ, so headed home instead and played till 6am in the morning. Zzzzz

I allowed myself to just let loose for today and tomorrow. When Monday comes, its a whole new week with work and classes and reports and my mid-term is coming up. I can't stop worrying bout my exams. I can't take it anymore. I wan to NOT worry bout reports and exams. Persevere Luisa. Just a little while more...... Hang on there.... I need motivation.

I need a holiday.

Just another day after all??

Its Valentines's Day and Im alone at home doin my report and preparing my presentation. THis sucks. =( Don't feel like watching a movie with the many other couples in Singapore. YOu watch movie on a normal day, so what so special about catching a movie on Valentine's day. Isn't there anything unique to do. Some say everyday is Valentine's day, that's what lazy people say. I dun wish to go out and eat at restaurants so that they can exploit u + the fact that Im broke. =p

What I really feel like doin is buying a bunch of roses and standing at Orchard road and selling them at 10 bucks a stalk. But I did not do that at all. I spent the whole of last night playing mahjong till 6am in the morning, slept through the whole day and finally woke up in the evening to rush my report. How sad my life is. So I guess is juz another day for me. Another day for people to feel miserable that they dun have a valentine, another day for business to make more money, another day for people to show off what their partner's bought for them, another day for girlfriends to be either happy or angry at their boyfriend's choice of gift for them.... etc.

Im happy with my gift, juz unhappy with how the whole day turned out.

I tink I need a PS3.

My V day gift from Kenneth. =)

The past weeks have been a blur. I forgot what had happend and I dun remember what I did. Im juz rushing through each day, trying my best to get through the day. Im getting weary and I need rest. Reports are due over the weekend. Presentations... mid-term exams....work load....crazy crowd at work. Oh man, I wish, I wish, I wish this term would be over soon. I can barely hang on anymore.

On the bright side, Valentine's Day is coming up. I got my pressie already!!! It so beautiful. I really really really like it soooooo much. Its worth so much more than all the expensive presents out there. Thank you Baby. I really love it. Thanks for doin it for me. I wish I could have done something for u too, but I dun have the time now. Sorry. =( Have made a few plans for V day but decided not to go along with any of it. All businesses are exploiting everything in the name of St. Valentines. Even a glass of wine is costing 3x as much. Wanted to book a hotel room with Spa, but decided against it. To save money. No point wasting unnecessary money when both is broke. hehehe

So, in the end, the plan is to stay at home and have a quiet dinner. Away from all the other couples and expensive dinners and crowd and hustle and bustle. yeap. sounds good to me. except that I gotta cook. I feel cheated. But then the sad part is, I gotta rush a report over this weekend too. *sigh* this sucks.

I've been a little disturbed the past few days. Not something I wan to blog a bout cuz its some thing I wanna forget. Hopefully it will be out of my system soon. *forget forget forget* DELETE****

But it has reminded me to be thankful and grateful for all my love ones around me. To be contented with what I have and not to keep wanting more.

I juz wanna go home everyday to the arm of someone who is happy to see me. I dun need my Gucci, LV, Prada... but maybe my Mui Mui. Chasing all these last time has made me frustrated, empty and totally unsatisfied. I wan other things now. Family, good friends, and good junk food. wheeee.

Surround myself with people and things I love. And stay away from people who makes me unhappy And Irritated.

sniff sniff

Miss LuLu is having the sniffles and down with a fever on friday. how sad.
feeling terrible and sick. but still quite alrite. down a few meds and lots of water, hoping to get well by tomorrow.
been feeling tired from work and school and really need some time out from everything. but after chatting with my uncle over dinner, got a little motivation to hang on. hope it will all be over soon.
kenneth playing mahjong while i guess i'll be goin to bed real soon. like now.
Goodnite world.

2nd Febuary

my mood = Zzzzz
Today is the day when I officially say Goodbye to the holidays... Its Miserable Monday again, no more holidays but endless days of crappy work and never ending boring reports and researches. Sigh.
so sian and moody juz thinkin bout it. Last week was plain exhausting. Was feeling utterly miserable at work and feeling so sian it makes me wanna vomit.
Okie, no more dwelling on unhappy stuff. Think happy. Happy Happy Happy.
okie, lets see.....
I had fun almost the whole week, I enjoyed myself a lot. I won quite a bit of money. Enough for me to buy 5 packets of Korean Strawberries. Sweet!
The past few days, I attended Ah Boy's daughter 1year old Birthday party, won some money there too, but only enough for a packet of cigarettes. Brought my grandma to watch movie - the wedding game. Fann Wong is sooooo pretty! Hung out with friends till late at night playing silly games over ice-cream and fries. Attended wedding. TIRING! I need to stop having fun and go back to my studies and boring job.
Have I mentioned that Ira's son is here and he's so adorable with too much energy & I get tired playing with him after a while. Pfft.
I dun wanna work anymore...
I dun wanna work anymore.......
I need directions. Im lost.

i feel like giving up

Im draggin my feet every single day. I seriously dun wanna work anymore. Im so exhausted and tired everyday.

Im really really looking forward to the holidays..... but doesn't seem like its goin to be a relaxing holiday.

Im so tired from classes after work yesterday and tonite i gotta go to school again. SIGH.

Then Steamboat dinner with Kenneth's Family is tomorrow.

Saturday I gotta work and then 'reunion' dinner with friends.

Sunday reunion dinner at grandma's house.

I feel tired juz thinking bout it. I need rest. I want to do NOTHING.

Im calculating my expenses to see if I can survive without working.

I might be able to - provided that I stop shopping, stop dining at restaurants, stop smoking, stop watching movies, stop eating sandwiches, stop drinking EVIAN water......

I might eventually die of boredom, hunger or even thirst. DOUBLE SIGH.

Which means I can't stop working.

Im looking people to contribute to the 'Save Luisa Fund'.

Kind souls out there, please transfer money through ATM/iBanking, or GIRO min of $100 every month to my account. It will ensure the existence & happiness of Luisa.

You will be greatly blessed. =D Saving Luisa from her mundane life, full of frustrations, disappointments, exhaustion.......

Im so mad

my school is taking an awfully long time to upload the exam results. the other classes already got their results like few days ago and my class is still wondering whether we cleared the module or not~!! SO ANGRY!!

I got my Chinese new year outfits but im missing shoes.... but I dun tink i'll be getting new shoes this year cuz im so broke!!! juz serviced the van and its purring perfectly. Plus I juz replenished my facial care products which totalled up to about $300. I switched back to Biotherm from Clinique. Biotherm seems to be better for my skin plus the counter girl was really nice.

I went to SaSa to buy some nail polish to DIY my own nails for the new year to save money for mani and pedi and this particular nail polish caught my eye. its a very piang color of reddish orangy. If it turns our damn piang in ur imagination, it prolly is that color that I bought. It on my nails now, and I love it. Im seriously not normal. It reminds me of some highlighter I used in primary school to color my nails. Wheee....

Finally watched 'Yes Man' Yesterday, the Ducati was so sexy... I wish Kenneth rode one. =P

The winds have been crazy this few days and I love it. Gives u an excuse of not needing to comb your hair when u leave the house. Went to Marina Barrage on Thurs, the place was beautiful, the view spectacular. Had a nice time unwinding there. Work has been a crazy roller coaster and I feel like im hangin by a thread. Thank God I have a very long weekend, off from thurs till sun. Im determined to get a good rest and recharge.

Need rest. Cramps.

I Like It

I was home early today since I had half day off from work, my iTunes was on shuffle and guess what came on~!!!!
My fave dance music of all time. I have not heard it for the longest time. It brings back sooooo much memories.
This is definitely my song. =D
When Im sad, it makes me happy.
When Im happy, it makes me high.
I remember dancing to this when Im high. Like really high.

AWESOME~

I Like It (Mblack Remix) - Narcotic Thrust

Brunch / Hi-tea

Lunch was at Mandarin Orchard. It was some dim sum buffet. I almost died by eating myself to death. There was an unexpected guest, John Lee, I was sooo surprised to see him. And I was glad to have him there. It was pretty pleasant reunion lunch + celebration of Sami's birthday.
I ate lots of tiger prawns, lobster, peking duck, suckling pig porriage and many many dim sum. Food wasn't that fantastic and the tiramisu did not taste like tiramisu. -.-

After the lunch some went home, some went to catch a movie. Either red cliff or Hannah Montana. I dun like chinese fighting movie and I dun like Miley Cyrus. Suppose to go swimming this afternoon but after the lunch I would have thrown up in the pool if I did went swimming so decided to head home and rest.

Im so addicted to this stupid facebook game, I wasted the whole afternoon playing it. Arggg.
Classes start next week on wed and thurs. ZZZzzzzz.

They give me the surprise look when I said that I dun know if Samuel would be coming. I just said we did not talk for quite some time. And when I tink bout it, it has really been QUITE some time since we talked. How were we last time? I thought we are still close. But I haven realised maybe not anymore. Well, things do change. Or maybe I changed. I might have changed cuz I dunnoe what to say to him anymore. I dunnoe what to do together anymore...... well.... thats life. haven really thought bout all this till today when John kept asking whether we quarrelled. Thats the thing. we did not even quarrel. I juz drifted out of ur life. so John concluded - we have broken up. I dun know to laugh and take it as a joke or feel sad bout it.
John mentioned while we were smoking on how our 'family' have turned out into and I totally agreed with him. Its juz weird that we're still there. I tink its really time for me to find new friends. A new scene. I tink im goin to take up Yoga classes or some baking class to hang out with some housewives. SInce im turning into some boring old alcoholic shit.
Juz some thoughts.... dun ask me bout it. I dun want to talk bout all this at all. Juz need to let it our. Tomorrow will be a better day. =D
Bless me in the new semester.

MILK

Watched MILK yesteday after work with Jac, Boo, Sami, Loo etc. It was a refreshing change to have dinner with them and catching a movie from the hectic days of my working life. Kenneth was doing guard duty so I took a train all by myself all the way to town instead of hopping onto a cab. Im so damn proud of myself!

The movie was good overall. Even though it was about a gay political figure, Everyone should watch it whether gay, straight or in-betweens which Jac & I call the whatevers. There was this character Cleve Jones in the movie which is so Samuel!!

Nice. I had fun even though I reached home pretty late and was damn sleepy at work the whole day. It was a worthy sacrifice to see all my sweeties again.

Im soooo looking forward to goin to Bangkok with them the next round after all my studies.

Argg, I hate school.

End of holiday season.....

After all the holidays, time at work is crawling at snail's pace. *sigh* Left with Chinese New Year to look forward to, but work is gonna be damn hectic during that period. *sigh-sigh*

After work yesterday, headed down to Chinatown to have steanboat with Caleb and Sheares. I had to go cuz Sheares was treating. Wheee... Food was not too bad, the chilli was quite shiok, even though I dun really take spicy. Juz eating and chatting and sharing office gossip. I ate A LOT and felt bloated like a whale. Even my stomach hurt after. But the moment I reached home, was dragged downstairs to have TAU HUEY with TANGYUAN - my favourite!- with Keong. I felt like a total piggy after. damn. All the swimming I have done the previous weekend have gone to waste. Hmmp.

Im soo dreading next week, my school term is starting and Im back to taking 2 modules. Which means double the stress, double time taken up and I gotta go to school twice a week. Gah! I have no time for anything anymore... sob sob sob. I dun wanna go back to school... I wanna be like that everyday. No stress, juz work and play, work and sleep, work and watch drama. I dun wanna study.... so sian~!!!!

Sheares have tendered his resignation, and will be leaving at the end of the month. Kinda sad that I would be losing one of work buddies but yet Im glad that he is leaving to pursue a business venture. Some feel that he is taking a big risk at this point of time, but I feel that it is good for a man to take a risk and try new things out. At least he does not have any major committments at the present moment and there is no better time for him to take a step forward. I wish I could, but Im not really a risk taker. Neither do I have any good business idea with low start up capital for me to venture out. What business is suitable for me to set up? hmmmm....

At the moment, there are so many things I wanna do. but my studies are holding me back, which is quite frustrating at times. But when the market is how it is now. All im hoping is I can hold on to my job. Even if I managed to hold on to my job, the changes at work is making it difficult to stay on. Even Caleb is goin for an interview on Thurs. Haiz, the basic the other company is offering is so much lower and even he does not mind.
Give me strength and perserverance. Help me to hold on to my sanity when everything else is goin crazy.
Focus on things that matter, and dun give a damn to things that upsets me.
Thanks for being my pillar, giving me support........ please stay by my side.

I slept the first day of 2009 away

I finished watching Little Nonya on MobTV as I could not wait each day for each episode to unfold.
I don't like the ending. =( Boring.
Anyways, my new year eve was a very quiet affair spent at home watching the countdown on both Channel 5 & Channel 8. I tink Channel 5 countdown at Marina Bay was so much better lor. Minutes to midnite we were all bloody tipsy from all the alcohol. I was feeling like damn bloated and sick from all the mixes. White wine with vodka, mix with a little Baileys and some juices... I can't really remember. made me feel real sick. But overall it was juz a quiet nite watchin movies, playing games and chatting with lots of alcohol. Even Ira joined us for some beer, BINGO and 21.




Keong was the first one to get drunk and went completely nuts. We have the video to prove it~! haha. Pity Samuel did not come. Oh well...

My new eye candy for 2009, Dai Yang Tian. So cheena rite the name. But he is so damn hot!! He totally overtook Elvin Ng in my hotties list. Check out his pics to simply understand why.
HOT!!!

He was on Channel 8 coundown show. Wheeee.....



His picture from the show that be acted in. So cute....... 'Little Japanese'.


Hopefully 2009 would be a EVEN better year for me. With good food, nice drinks, great novels to read and lots of love from family and frens. =D

No more putting up of bullshit from people and loving myself more. Much much more.

No new year resolution for me since I can never keep them. So well, juz go with the flow wherever 2009 takes me.

Ok, maybe juz one resolution.

1. Stop spending so much money.

I tink I really do have too much clothes, cuz everyone that come up also exclaims at my wardrobe. Keong calls my wardrobe Takashimaya. Point taken.

*too lazy to rotate the pic* random pics of Qubie.

Happy new year loves.

Puppy Love

This year seems to have passed me by really quick. In this year, I have suffered greatly from the cruelty of studies and the torture of work. So drama, yeah, whatever.
Lots of things have changed, I realised I don't club as much as I used to, and I can't drink anymore, I am now officially a cheap drunk. All this due to the fact that Im juggling work and studies. I really feel too exhausted for anything else. Hopefully next year will be a better year for me.
Im heading for domestication, and since Im spending a lot of time at home, i need a pet to entertain me. I want a pet. I always wanted a dog since Joey passed away and Angie was given away, but a lot of committment goes into it.....
Im thinkin of either a Shitzu or Maltese. But I prefer the latter. So cute~! What's not to love.

I still do not know what Im goin to do on NYE. Counting down is overrated. Im not interested in fireworks. hmmmm.... I need a dog to watch TV with me. Call me grandma. =P

TGIF?

Goin back to work after Christmas is the ultimate sian-ness. How I envy those who does not have to go back to work after the holidays!! *sigh*

Christmas have been super busy and tiring for me, but I was happy. =) Christmas Eve was nice. No clubbing for me this year, juz hangin out with frens and sweeties. Dun really fancy clubbin anymore except for the company. Im getting old. BooHOoHoo.

Some sweeties that made my Christmas sweeter.

Kayla. SO cute this girl~!!!
Christmas day was spent with the dogs. It was a doggies X'mas party at my cousin's place.

Present at the party was Me, Kenneth, Keong & Serena...+ spectators.

Doggies present were Ruffles, Hayley, Ruskin, Qubie & Oscar. So fun~

Meet Ruskin - Smallest dog, biggest bark.

Ruffles - Biggest dog, most gentle dog

Hayley - The princess

Qubie - Ken's new ugly dog.

Oscar - The Outcast. Go Figure.

make friend. make friend. But Ruskin don't like. Racist! Ruskin kept barking at Oscar the whole time.

I enjoy simple pleasures of playing with dogs, having hot milo and prata with frens and talk bout our worries, our plans for the future and complain bout the present till 5am in the morning!

This Christmas have been great catching up with friends & family and it makes me truly happy to hang out with people I love and care about. I gotta do this more often.

Saturday would be another jam pack day of parties and meeting friends. Im so looking forward to tomorrow.

Im so sleepy already, but my movie is at midnite. I hope I can keep my eyes open.

Im watching Bedtime stories. I tink its gonna be good!