Mr Dentist give me the chills~

Went to the dentist this afternoon and it was terrible. It was painful and torturous. It was pure torture for half an hour in that chair and I had to pay $396 after!!!! Gosh.

Its paying for pure pain.

The cleaning was so painful since my last visit to the dentist was many years ago, so I guess there was much to clean. =( and I had 4 cavities to fill. Ouch!

I have no appetite for the next few hours but gave in to spring chicken craving for dinner.

My teeth hurts and Im suppose to be changing and getting ready for drinks at Movida with the girls. Jiu Wo~

Feel sad gotta leave Kenneth to find his own program. =( Sorry

All I need is Clothes & SHoes.

was feeling a little depressed this afternoon. Feeling a little upset bout some stuff. BOut life. Bout work. Im not really draggin my feet to work every morning, but I really need a break from work. From school. From all the bullshit around me. I juz wish to be somewhere quiet, with no worries, reading my book with warm sunlight on my face, ice cold beer. No worries bout money, bout work stuff, bout school.... I need to get away from my life. I need to be alone. Of course, I would not mind to have someone by my side that I can lean on and lay my head on his shoulder.
I was looking at my work schedule and there was no way I could getaway anytime soon. And I got even more depressed.
So I thought about clothes.... And how I would feel and look in them, and SERIOUSLY... I started to feel better. Clothes and shoes can really comfort me and do wonders bout my depression. It was amazing! I really really did not know that just thinking about clothes could make feel so warm and peaceful. Yeah, I know im crazy. I never said I was normal anyways.
I love my clothes and Im addicted. I need more.

This week is passing way too slowly. Its only Tues. Damn.
Feeling super sian to be back at work. But at least I get to watch little nonya. =)
Im soooooo waiting for Christmas. I can't wait for the superb dinner at MaMa's place.
Was invited to Kimberly and Kayla's birthday party on the 27th and it falls exactly on Kenneth's birthday. Was wondering what should we do, cuz Ken & I both adore Kayla to bits, so skipping her birthday was not a solution, Aunt Sharon simply asked Kenneth to celebrate with the girls. LOL~
I kept laughing cuz the party would be so girly and princessy, and Kenneth would be celebrating his birthday with a Barbie doll cake and 7 candles!!
Hilarious~!!

Bleah

ZoukOut yesterday was not exactly what I expected it to be. Nothing went according to plan and I did NOT have a lot of fun. But I overall it was juz okay...... Met and hung out with people I like, and some I do not like.
ZoukOut started off with bad communication, lots of waiting, hunger pains and feeling irriated. Was asked to go down earlier to rest in the hotel room, which was the plan. Ended up stuck in traffic jams and reaching Sentosa only bout 7++.
Chilling out in the room was probably the most enjoyable part of the whole entire nite and also hanging out Ian, he's cool. When headed down to ZoukOut, I was so irritated by fucking fat and sweaty people bumping me all over. And some asshole grabbed my ass while I was trying to make my way through the crowds. Seeing some people faces just spoilt my whole entire mood. I started to get bored and sat somewhere to drink and people watch. When deciding to go dance and enjoy the music, I was bombarded with people with fucking bad BO that made me feel like vomiting, and while holding my breath to prevent smelling their BO, I felt like fainting from the lack of oxygen. I gave up becuase the music was crap and headed back to the room to rest. Few of us hung out in the room till bout 5 plus and Kenneth knocked out, Jason was feeling ill. After resting for quite some time, we decided to go down to give ZoukOut one more try.
Met secondary school fren at the Main Arena but was not in a socialising mood so made a quick 'nice to see u and bye bye' . Stayed a while later and finally made it out of Sentosa around 7+ with the whole group in tow.

It is definitely the worst ZoukOut I ever experienced thanx to people who spoilt my mood. Very Fat people. They should juz stay at home. They do not add any value to the scenary and take up way too much space.

WooooWeeeeHoooooo

FINALLY!!

One more sem to go. But in the mean time, Im gonna enjoy the holidays before school starts next year. Starting with ZoukOut tomorrow! Wheeee.........
Happy dayz and happy time.

p/s Baby thanks for being so patient during my madness & sian-ness period. And for buying breakfast, lunch and dinner for me everyday. Muacks.
p/s FJ, Im super jealous of u lor..................................U better clear this sem.

Jiu Wo

Im feeling lazy.

Im feeling miserable.

Im feeling tired.

Im feeling sleepy.

Nothing seems to be goin in my brain. And I feel hungry all the time.

3 more days to exam. 3 more days to happy dayz. And celebrations, and nua-ing.

To Christmas festive joy and happiness. HooooOORay......

But now, at this moment. I can't take it anymore. I feel suffocated.

Hang On.

I hate Exams....

Time of quiet reflection. I Love Being In Love. =) I love being happy. I know people would tink who do not like to be happy but please... there are many people who simply enjoy being miserable. Even when they claim all they want is to be happy. But they keep putting themself in situations which makes them miserable. Somehow I tink they enjoy it, so they things to whine about and complain about.
I realised I have crying a lot recently. And no, not because I quarrelled with Kenneth and certainly not because of my exams... even though I really feel like crying when I tink of my exams... ARGG
The reason for me tearing so much recently is the terrorist attack on Mumbai that claimed the life of Ms Lo Hwei Yen. She was beautiful, smart, fun, capable and successful. Most of all she had a man who loved her dearly.
It was heartbreaking to read about her husband talking about her. It was sooo heartwrenching. It made me tear more than once.
He said: “Everything I did, I did for her. My whole life revolved around her and she truly was the meaning of my life.”
The part that made me cry was when he said that he did not even want her to get wet. Awww..
Came across the blog of the gf, whose bf passed away during training in NS. Super sad too.... So cruel, so unfair. Hope she will get better with each day. Time truly heals all wounds, I would know. Its tested and proven. might take a longer time instead.

Love is such a beautiful thing. Bringing 2 strangers together and sharing each other's life. Takes a lot of hard work but I guess at the end of the day it would be all worth it.
Having someone to love me so so much have made me very happy. Giving in to my every whine. Being patient at my unreasonable tempers and demands.
Seeing or rather reading bout people losing their loved ones, is really very sad and I cannot imagine losing a dearly loved one. Its too scary to even think about it.
I feel that it is important to live each day happily, and not let any little thing get in the way. Any arguments and quarrels have to be settled or solved quickly and not go to bed angry. Life is so unexpected and never know what will happen..... I want every memory to be beautiful.

I know im babling without making much sense. thoughts are too random to put them together.

Anyways, its been a torturous, lazy Sunday for me. Napping, eating, snacking, reading, reading, reading, snacking, napping.... vicious cycle. I hate it~!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate studying. I so wanna quit.
Oh man, I cant wait, i cant wait, i cant wait. I can't wait for Friday nite. Where I meet my worst nightmare for the month, IMC Paper and also the joy at 9pm.
I can do it. I can do it.
JIU WO~
Im so sleepy already and I need to go out later for Shawn's Bday.... Yawnz.

Pre-Exams Anxiety

Work has been... well.... not so hectic for the past weeks. Kinda good for me. Whee... but after a while, things start to get boring and we start to find things to do to past time. Like eating, snacking, chatting, reading newspapers... for me I choose to read my textbook to prepare for my exams but my colleagues keep Irritating me and I end up reading the same sentance 10 times. I ended up not studying but fooling around and stoning at work. =S

~My work Buddy Caleb and his retro hairstyle~

~Me~

After work, we had a branch dinner at a Japanese Restaurant. It was a buffet dinner, so Caleb and I decided to not eat much for lunch so we could have more at dinner. Before dinner started we went shopping at Raffles City, but before it was time for dinner, we were sooooo hungry cuz we did not eat much the whole day and my legs felt like jelly. I was so tempted to munch on all the goodies that were at the basement but YEAH, I did NOT succumb to temptation and had a lot to eat for dinner. I ate like Tons of sashimi, tempura.... beef.... many many more. I felt like a shishamo after that.

Planning what to order... yum yum

As usual being bullied by Caleb and Sheares.

But life at work would be so boring without any of them.


We had Sake after dinner, everyone was so excited about it. See all the closet drinkers showing their true colors. hehe Sake was good, I never had it before. But it was kinda strong though. Bleah. I thought the cold Sake would be nicer but I ended up drinking the warm Sake. Shiok.

High~! LOL

Okie, enough of fun. I really need to study for my exams... I haven really started. Im so dead. =S Help me.

Face like Strawberry shortcake.... ouch

Kenneth have been working like the past few weekends. And finally this is the last weekend that he will be working. As usual I have been left to myself to find my own entertainment. Of course the plan was to stay home and study. But since I lack the discipline and the fact that I dun feel in the best of mood, I had to go out and do something.

Met up with Jarlyn and Jack for coffee at Starbucks. Its been months and months and gosh, I do miss them. serious conversations and lots of laughter. Even after all these years, poor Jarlyn still stuck in the same old situation and having a broken heart. I wish I could do something to help her, or rather wake her up. But life lessons are best learnt by your own. No one else can help if you yourself have no intention to help yourself. Sigh. Because it takes such a long time for us to meet up, we planned ahead and booked dates of our next meet up sesssion. Dinner @ Sheration. Again. And another to have dinner @ Raffles Hotel. Yes. Im still broke as ever and its only getting worse. But dinner at all theses places would cost cheaper than a shopping center foodcourt. Why? Connections... Wheeeee..... and anyway, its Jack's treat anyway.

Today woke up early to go see showrooms of the Punggol flats and Boon Keng City View. I soooo lurve City View, but most of the units are already snapped up. but I could not afford it anyway.... its like $560K. *faints* i gotta pay through my ass to live there. Punggol flats are way too overpriced as well. Im so upset. Its so unfair.......

After Kenneth left for work, I headed to Dempsey hill for my facial. I have really bad breakouts recently and my face needs help. Now after facial, I feel so good all the disgusting stuff is being squeezed out but my face looks all swollen and bruised. Just like strawberry shortcake. Eeeewww. I hope it heals soon.

Im hoping so much for something, and I hope I get it. Hopefully next month will be a better month for me.

Since there is nothing much to look forward to next year as the market is only gonna get worse. Im juz living from month to month and saving as much as I can (not very successful) in case of any unfortunate event that is happening to almost every bank in Singapore. Im not scared or worried or panicking. I guess, if anything happens, all I can say is...

THat sucks~!

**FJ, hope you're feeling better..... I was so worried lor. Lucky u never die. I need my emailing buddy back at work soon. Im so bored without u~! I juz blasted your mailbox when u were on mc... hehehe

Online shopping....

I have been online shopping for the longest time. I rarely go down to town or shopping malls anymore cuz I can still get pretty dresses online. FAVOURITE........ Its also the fastest way to erode my savings.

There's so many things I can get online, its really interesting. Some seller wanted me to buy a Hello Kitty Toaster from her through email. I would. But I already got a toaster.

been checking out the new HDB flats at Punggol. But is really costly for somewhere so far. its kinda hard to make a decision. but im taking my time looking around.

anyways, been feeling moody too recently. might be due to memses. but i still wanna be the unreasonable bitch i always have been. I feel like im drifting away from the world. i tink its one of those times where the stress of my exams are starting to consume me. But it fact is..... im really really not stress over my exams. Im juz making an excuse to be angry with everything.

Im so angry with some people I feel like smashing their face and running over them with my van. I juz wanna spend my life hating them and devote my life to making them miserable.

But im too lazy. so in the end, I juz choose to ignore them and stay away from them as much as possible. try all ways to avoid them.

I wish I can buy some new frens online too. That way I can choose the type of people I can be frens with. And how they look like. How they talk. The kind of activities they like. And within 3-4 working days, they can be shipped into your life. And I can be super happy........... for the moment.

I juz rented like 4 novels to read, despite the fact that my exams are nearing. But I enjoy the peace and simple quietness, and time to myself when I read. Plus the fact that the Shopaholic series is super addictive~!!

Went to the food fair at Suntec twice in a row. the food there is fantastic and I spent close to 100 bucks. Juz on food.

Yeah. im really getting fat.

mundane

Kenneth have been working every weekend, which is alrite, cuz we're goin to need all the cash we can get. Went down to look for Kenneth at work yesterday at Suntec, the Singtel fair. Took a bus down after work, cuz the car was with Kenneth.

I really seriously dun mean to sound spoilt or irritating. Taking public transport sucks big time. It was so torturous. Squeezing with all the smelly and sweaty people. Argg.. I really wanted to puke. People rubbing against u, and holding up their smelly armpits in your face. It was terrible. I almost fainted from standing for prolonged period. I almost burst out crying when the bus constantly jerked, each time swinging me around the pole I was grabbing on. Some asshole would not give me a little space to hold on to the pole and I juz shove my hand to grab on to something. Fckin selfish I tell u. Some fat ass lying agains the pole, and juz because of her, everyone around her had nothing to grab on to. SICKENING. weirdos. Im definitely taking a cab the next time round. Public transport is too torturous for me. seriously. sigh.

Salaries shrinking and daily meals getting expensive. THis is no time to splurge and what did I do the moment I got my salary, I Spent. =(
So im goin to stay locked up. cuz im broke after paying off all my bills. HP bill this month is $400++. Damn. all cuz of the roaming charges... so well.

been rushing my report every free moment after work. Exams are coming up and I still have no bloody idea what is goin on. My lecturer sucks and listening to him is a torture.

my life sucks - at the moment. i fear losing my job. financial sector has been pretty shaken up. but juz taking each day as it comes. most to most, i'll just bum around again. shit. this sucks.

a monday that isnt so bad after all....

I got half day off from work this morning and had to attend a course in the afternoon. Utter waste of my time if I have to say so! Hmmp.

Anyways, the tension in the air recently of all the talks of retrenchment goin around, makes me wonder if it will affect me too. Its kinda scary... but im keeping my hopes up. Im worried because of my spendthrift lifestyle, with credit card bills to pay as well as a home to upkeep. So, pls keep me in your prayers. =)

Sat spent hanging out with Ken and Keong. Talking bout clubbing and partying. I kinda miss it sometimes. But I know that its not the dancing and music and alcohol that Im missing, but I guess i miss my frens. Miss those times of how we would come up with excuses for the entire group of us to go partying and getting drunk. We would celebrate birthdays, anniversaries, festivals, getting a new haircut, a new shirt.. whatever.... we even came down to celebrate me having my period.

Came across a few things that makes me ponder bout life.... I must be grateful for the people in my life who love me and stays by my side.

I am grateful that I have my health, even though its not fantastic, I can walk on my own, I can jump and ride bicycle. I can shit and pee without other people's help. Things that we take for granted can be so difficult for some people. Which is very very very sad. Its so heartbreaking and I tear even when watching some people struggling with life.

I really have no big dreams to be like super rich, I mean I would love to be rich and have everything that my heart desires. But for now... Im happy. As long as I have my family, my frens, my health, my JOB (something that I have come to appreciate over the past weeks).....I tink I would get through life fine.

LUISA LIM, you have to stop spending money....!!! Its the recession for goodness sake. GAH! Im so upset with myself. I really need to control my spending and Im locking myself up until the 12 of Dec. No more shopping malls for me. No going out to fancy restaurants. No more expensive cookies and cakes. No more shoes, no more dresses.

ENOUGH. I cant even fit in anymore clothes in my closet. I have to stop.

Please help me. Im goin to embrace the simple life from today onwards.

Luisa, u can do this.

drink drank drunk

So broke. so broke. I seriously dunnoe where all my money go to. I need a financial check up. Im feeling so so ARGGGG bout my CPF investment losing money. bout 6K. I know its a small amount. but im still So upset.

I have to say that last nite was fun, both dinner and drinks. Dinner and game of Bridge with Samuel & fren. Then Kenneth and I had to leave for drinks with his frens. Which I was not really looking forward to but I have to say, I did have fun.
The mission for the night was to get the Birthday boy drunk, which was accomplished. But not only was the birthday boy spending most of the night with the toilet bowl, my darling boyfriend was super duper high too! Non-stop gulping of Chivas and beer and green tea, where loser of the game Holdem had to drink up the messed up concoction which would leave no man standing after. YUCKS. and yes, kenneth had not much good luck at the game, but so did many others. I stuck to my cherry beer which I kinda like. but stayed away from the other drinks cuz it was Nasty.
Although I was being bored to death by some conversation which I shall not expose here for fear that somehow, somewhere that person might chance upon this post. It was great. But all the plans that I had for Sunday..... not done. at all. I stayed home the whole day. doing nothing except to watch Season 2 of Gossip Girl. Im SOoooooo addicted......

I gottta have my beauty sleep now.

XOXO

I promise to be thankful

im still feeling the sian-ness of being back to reality. back to life. back to work.
I have school tomorrow which makes it worse. And the fact that my exam is coming, doesn't make it better. But somehow, I have a feeling I might be able to make it to ZoukOut this year. *crosses finger*

Anyways, somethings always make situation better. Like.... Kenneth, Samuel and family. I spent my whole weekend lazing around. but managed to drag my lazy ass out of bed on Sunday to go meet Samuel. And once again on Monday to go see grandma.
So i guess, no matter how much I say I miss Berlin and Vienna. I really really did miss people at home so much more. And seeing Samuel and spending time with Kenneth over the weekend, Im glad to be home. =)

I was intending to club the past sunday, but changed my mind at the last min, cuz juz thinkin bout it makes me bored. was great hanging out with Samuel, as usual. after when he left to go party, Kenneth decided to bring me to Mt Faber, when the weather was hot and humid. But it was nice, the view and conversation bout what im goin to do with my life. haven gotten to the conclusion yet. And after Mt Faber, Kenneth brought me to Swensens at 2am to satisfy my ice-cream craving.
I have the sweetest bf ever!
I know I make people sick with the last line, but I juz need to show my appreciation for what he has done.
Thank you. =)

Im so blessed. I have the sweetest bf and a loving brother+soul mate+best fren.
Im juz counting my blessings.

Post holiday blues

It's such a bugger my holiday ended way too soon. I still haven gotten over the fact that Im back home and back to reality. its sad actually.
depressing.
My days in Eastern Europe were hectic yet fun.
I arrive in Zurich, Switzerland on day 1 and drove up to Fussen, Germany to see my first castle.


View was great, weather was fabulous. Perfect. =D We then headed to Vienna. I swear it was love at first sight.




After Vienna, we ended up in Budapest, Hungary where I cruise down Danube River.




From Budapest, Hungary to Krakow, Poland. Krakow was more intense as in we visited the Jewish concentration camp where millions of jews were murdered and it was pretty disturbing and upsetting. I got nightmares that nite.
Next was Prague, Czech Republic.


After Prague, I was in Berlin, definitely my favourite. I almost wanted to get lost so my grandma would leave me there. But well... the famous Berlin Wall.

My holiday was fun, great weather, breathtaking sceneries, nice company. But deep down inside I guess I did miss home. I miss my chicken rice, rojak etc.

I was craving so much for chinese food, the moment i saw Meat Dumplings on the menu, I ordered it and this was what i got!!! LOL. nothing close to what I expected. -.-

And of course some hot guys I came across on my holiday. tee hee. Charming!

Pictures posted here is only a fraction of what I have taken. THing is, my trip was great and im sorry to be home. gah~ but nevertheless... im home. Funny thing is, I did not really buy stuff but I did buy lots of chocolotes. irresistable. But I did spend a whole lot of money on toilets. Can u imagine? Everytime I needed to go to the toilet it cost from 50cent EURO to 1 EURO. considering the fact that i go to the toilet quite often, I spent close to $80 SGD on toilets. So expensive!!

I need another holiday.

Home

Im finally home and exhausted and so not looking forward to work tomorrow.

A place where the beer is cheaper than water, I totally did not want to come home..... =(

*yawnz* Time to sleep, my clock is all screwed up.

more updates when i get used to life back home again. hehe =D

my nose hurts

To work continuously without any off days and sat off is truly torturous. I've been working non-stop for the past one and 1/2 month without off days, without sat off and I was determined not to take any MC. This made me easily irritated, depressed and cranky all day long.


Thanks to great frens / colleagues, I finally made it through, it was tough and tiring but I made it. Yesterday was officially my off day, and I got excited activating my "out of assistant" function on my email which said - Would be out of office from 10 oCt to 24oCt. Pls contact branch for urgent matters. - WOOOOOhoooooOOOooo. No need to go back to that stuffy office for 2 whole weeks. Sad thing is I would not be able to see Kenneth for bout 13 days.... but not needing to go to work. SHIOK!

Bad news is.... I got a pimple in my nose and it HURTS. HURTS like hell. its makin me a little cranky and irritated. dammit.