i feel like giving up

Im draggin my feet every single day. I seriously dun wanna work anymore. Im so exhausted and tired everyday.

Im really really looking forward to the holidays..... but doesn't seem like its goin to be a relaxing holiday.

Im so tired from classes after work yesterday and tonite i gotta go to school again. SIGH.

Then Steamboat dinner with Kenneth's Family is tomorrow.

Saturday I gotta work and then 'reunion' dinner with friends.

Sunday reunion dinner at grandma's house.

I feel tired juz thinking bout it. I need rest. I want to do NOTHING.

Im calculating my expenses to see if I can survive without working.

I might be able to - provided that I stop shopping, stop dining at restaurants, stop smoking, stop watching movies, stop eating sandwiches, stop drinking EVIAN water......

I might eventually die of boredom, hunger or even thirst. DOUBLE SIGH.

Which means I can't stop working.

Im looking people to contribute to the 'Save Luisa Fund'.

Kind souls out there, please transfer money through ATM/iBanking, or GIRO min of $100 every month to my account. It will ensure the existence & happiness of Luisa.

You will be greatly blessed. =D Saving Luisa from her mundane life, full of frustrations, disappointments, exhaustion.......

Im so mad

my school is taking an awfully long time to upload the exam results. the other classes already got their results like few days ago and my class is still wondering whether we cleared the module or not~!! SO ANGRY!!

I got my Chinese new year outfits but im missing shoes.... but I dun tink i'll be getting new shoes this year cuz im so broke!!! juz serviced the van and its purring perfectly. Plus I juz replenished my facial care products which totalled up to about $300. I switched back to Biotherm from Clinique. Biotherm seems to be better for my skin plus the counter girl was really nice.

I went to SaSa to buy some nail polish to DIY my own nails for the new year to save money for mani and pedi and this particular nail polish caught my eye. its a very piang color of reddish orangy. If it turns our damn piang in ur imagination, it prolly is that color that I bought. It on my nails now, and I love it. Im seriously not normal. It reminds me of some highlighter I used in primary school to color my nails. Wheee....

Finally watched 'Yes Man' Yesterday, the Ducati was so sexy... I wish Kenneth rode one. =P

The winds have been crazy this few days and I love it. Gives u an excuse of not needing to comb your hair when u leave the house. Went to Marina Barrage on Thurs, the place was beautiful, the view spectacular. Had a nice time unwinding there. Work has been a crazy roller coaster and I feel like im hangin by a thread. Thank God I have a very long weekend, off from thurs till sun. Im determined to get a good rest and recharge.

Need rest. Cramps.

I Like It

I was home early today since I had half day off from work, my iTunes was on shuffle and guess what came on~!!!!
My fave dance music of all time. I have not heard it for the longest time. It brings back sooooo much memories.
This is definitely my song. =D
When Im sad, it makes me happy.
When Im happy, it makes me high.
I remember dancing to this when Im high. Like really high.

AWESOME~

I Like It (Mblack Remix) - Narcotic Thrust

Brunch / Hi-tea

Lunch was at Mandarin Orchard. It was some dim sum buffet. I almost died by eating myself to death. There was an unexpected guest, John Lee, I was sooo surprised to see him. And I was glad to have him there. It was pretty pleasant reunion lunch + celebration of Sami's birthday.
I ate lots of tiger prawns, lobster, peking duck, suckling pig porriage and many many dim sum. Food wasn't that fantastic and the tiramisu did not taste like tiramisu. -.-

After the lunch some went home, some went to catch a movie. Either red cliff or Hannah Montana. I dun like chinese fighting movie and I dun like Miley Cyrus. Suppose to go swimming this afternoon but after the lunch I would have thrown up in the pool if I did went swimming so decided to head home and rest.

Im so addicted to this stupid facebook game, I wasted the whole afternoon playing it. Arggg.
Classes start next week on wed and thurs. ZZZzzzzz.

They give me the surprise look when I said that I dun know if Samuel would be coming. I just said we did not talk for quite some time. And when I tink bout it, it has really been QUITE some time since we talked. How were we last time? I thought we are still close. But I haven realised maybe not anymore. Well, things do change. Or maybe I changed. I might have changed cuz I dunnoe what to say to him anymore. I dunnoe what to do together anymore...... well.... thats life. haven really thought bout all this till today when John kept asking whether we quarrelled. Thats the thing. we did not even quarrel. I juz drifted out of ur life. so John concluded - we have broken up. I dun know to laugh and take it as a joke or feel sad bout it.
John mentioned while we were smoking on how our 'family' have turned out into and I totally agreed with him. Its juz weird that we're still there. I tink its really time for me to find new friends. A new scene. I tink im goin to take up Yoga classes or some baking class to hang out with some housewives. SInce im turning into some boring old alcoholic shit.
Juz some thoughts.... dun ask me bout it. I dun want to talk bout all this at all. Juz need to let it our. Tomorrow will be a better day. =D
Bless me in the new semester.

MILK

Watched MILK yesteday after work with Jac, Boo, Sami, Loo etc. It was a refreshing change to have dinner with them and catching a movie from the hectic days of my working life. Kenneth was doing guard duty so I took a train all by myself all the way to town instead of hopping onto a cab. Im so damn proud of myself!

The movie was good overall. Even though it was about a gay political figure, Everyone should watch it whether gay, straight or in-betweens which Jac & I call the whatevers. There was this character Cleve Jones in the movie which is so Samuel!!

Nice. I had fun even though I reached home pretty late and was damn sleepy at work the whole day. It was a worthy sacrifice to see all my sweeties again.

Im soooo looking forward to goin to Bangkok with them the next round after all my studies.

Argg, I hate school.

End of holiday season.....

After all the holidays, time at work is crawling at snail's pace. *sigh* Left with Chinese New Year to look forward to, but work is gonna be damn hectic during that period. *sigh-sigh*

After work yesterday, headed down to Chinatown to have steanboat with Caleb and Sheares. I had to go cuz Sheares was treating. Wheee... Food was not too bad, the chilli was quite shiok, even though I dun really take spicy. Juz eating and chatting and sharing office gossip. I ate A LOT and felt bloated like a whale. Even my stomach hurt after. But the moment I reached home, was dragged downstairs to have TAU HUEY with TANGYUAN - my favourite!- with Keong. I felt like a total piggy after. damn. All the swimming I have done the previous weekend have gone to waste. Hmmp.

Im soo dreading next week, my school term is starting and Im back to taking 2 modules. Which means double the stress, double time taken up and I gotta go to school twice a week. Gah! I have no time for anything anymore... sob sob sob. I dun wanna go back to school... I wanna be like that everyday. No stress, juz work and play, work and sleep, work and watch drama. I dun wanna study.... so sian~!!!!

Sheares have tendered his resignation, and will be leaving at the end of the month. Kinda sad that I would be losing one of work buddies but yet Im glad that he is leaving to pursue a business venture. Some feel that he is taking a big risk at this point of time, but I feel that it is good for a man to take a risk and try new things out. At least he does not have any major committments at the present moment and there is no better time for him to take a step forward. I wish I could, but Im not really a risk taker. Neither do I have any good business idea with low start up capital for me to venture out. What business is suitable for me to set up? hmmmm....

At the moment, there are so many things I wanna do. but my studies are holding me back, which is quite frustrating at times. But when the market is how it is now. All im hoping is I can hold on to my job. Even if I managed to hold on to my job, the changes at work is making it difficult to stay on. Even Caleb is goin for an interview on Thurs. Haiz, the basic the other company is offering is so much lower and even he does not mind.
Give me strength and perserverance. Help me to hold on to my sanity when everything else is goin crazy.
Focus on things that matter, and dun give a damn to things that upsets me.
Thanks for being my pillar, giving me support........ please stay by my side.

I slept the first day of 2009 away

I finished watching Little Nonya on MobTV as I could not wait each day for each episode to unfold.
I don't like the ending. =( Boring.
Anyways, my new year eve was a very quiet affair spent at home watching the countdown on both Channel 5 & Channel 8. I tink Channel 5 countdown at Marina Bay was so much better lor. Minutes to midnite we were all bloody tipsy from all the alcohol. I was feeling like damn bloated and sick from all the mixes. White wine with vodka, mix with a little Baileys and some juices... I can't really remember. made me feel real sick. But overall it was juz a quiet nite watchin movies, playing games and chatting with lots of alcohol. Even Ira joined us for some beer, BINGO and 21.




Keong was the first one to get drunk and went completely nuts. We have the video to prove it~! haha. Pity Samuel did not come. Oh well...

My new eye candy for 2009, Dai Yang Tian. So cheena rite the name. But he is so damn hot!! He totally overtook Elvin Ng in my hotties list. Check out his pics to simply understand why.
HOT!!!

He was on Channel 8 coundown show. Wheeee.....



His picture from the show that be acted in. So cute....... 'Little Japanese'.


Hopefully 2009 would be a EVEN better year for me. With good food, nice drinks, great novels to read and lots of love from family and frens. =D

No more putting up of bullshit from people and loving myself more. Much much more.

No new year resolution for me since I can never keep them. So well, juz go with the flow wherever 2009 takes me.

Ok, maybe juz one resolution.

1. Stop spending so much money.

I tink I really do have too much clothes, cuz everyone that come up also exclaims at my wardrobe. Keong calls my wardrobe Takashimaya. Point taken.

*too lazy to rotate the pic* random pics of Qubie.

Happy new year loves.

Puppy Love

This year seems to have passed me by really quick. In this year, I have suffered greatly from the cruelty of studies and the torture of work. So drama, yeah, whatever.
Lots of things have changed, I realised I don't club as much as I used to, and I can't drink anymore, I am now officially a cheap drunk. All this due to the fact that Im juggling work and studies. I really feel too exhausted for anything else. Hopefully next year will be a better year for me.
Im heading for domestication, and since Im spending a lot of time at home, i need a pet to entertain me. I want a pet. I always wanted a dog since Joey passed away and Angie was given away, but a lot of committment goes into it.....
Im thinkin of either a Shitzu or Maltese. But I prefer the latter. So cute~! What's not to love.

I still do not know what Im goin to do on NYE. Counting down is overrated. Im not interested in fireworks. hmmmm.... I need a dog to watch TV with me. Call me grandma. =P

TGIF?

Goin back to work after Christmas is the ultimate sian-ness. How I envy those who does not have to go back to work after the holidays!! *sigh*

Christmas have been super busy and tiring for me, but I was happy. =) Christmas Eve was nice. No clubbing for me this year, juz hangin out with frens and sweeties. Dun really fancy clubbin anymore except for the company. Im getting old. BooHOoHoo.

Some sweeties that made my Christmas sweeter.

Kayla. SO cute this girl~!!!
Christmas day was spent with the dogs. It was a doggies X'mas party at my cousin's place.

Present at the party was Me, Kenneth, Keong & Serena...+ spectators.

Doggies present were Ruffles, Hayley, Ruskin, Qubie & Oscar. So fun~

Meet Ruskin - Smallest dog, biggest bark.

Ruffles - Biggest dog, most gentle dog

Hayley - The princess

Qubie - Ken's new ugly dog.

Oscar - The Outcast. Go Figure.

make friend. make friend. But Ruskin don't like. Racist! Ruskin kept barking at Oscar the whole time.

I enjoy simple pleasures of playing with dogs, having hot milo and prata with frens and talk bout our worries, our plans for the future and complain bout the present till 5am in the morning!

This Christmas have been great catching up with friends & family and it makes me truly happy to hang out with people I love and care about. I gotta do this more often.

Saturday would be another jam pack day of parties and meeting friends. Im so looking forward to tomorrow.

Im so sleepy already, but my movie is at midnite. I hope I can keep my eyes open.

Im watching Bedtime stories. I tink its gonna be good!

Jingle Bells

Merry Christmas~!!! Finally its here. My favourite season of all times. Wheeeee.....

The past weekend have been super hectic. Phew.

Friday nite at Movido with the girls was great. Haven't seen them for the longest time and I miss them so. The music was a bit 'jam' when I got there, but after a few drinks of Chivas, everything seems fine. LOL

Saturday finally had the chance to sleep in without thinkin bout work and school. Shiok. But still Saturday was spent packing up the house and goin grocery shopping to prepare for the Christmas dinner potluck on Sunday. Christmas dinner was held at my place, was glad that everyone turned up. It was great~ Even the unexpected turned up, I guess it was the spirit of Christmas. Kenenth enjoyed himself so much playing 'Risk' with the guys, I just enjoy hanging out and chatting with the girls. Overall, it was fun.

Work yesterday was dull as everyone was in a festive mood with totally no heart to work at all. But my orders of choco eclairs, black forests mini rolls and cream puff arrived yesterday. YUMMY! They are simply the best. After work, had dinner with Ken's parents @Central then Kenneth brought me to collect my Christmas present.

Tada. LV Speedy 25. =D

I love it Baby~!!! I so happy. hehehehehehehehehehe

Very Very happy. =D

Thank You.

Mr Dentist give me the chills~

Went to the dentist this afternoon and it was terrible. It was painful and torturous. It was pure torture for half an hour in that chair and I had to pay $396 after!!!! Gosh.

Its paying for pure pain.

The cleaning was so painful since my last visit to the dentist was many years ago, so I guess there was much to clean. =( and I had 4 cavities to fill. Ouch!

I have no appetite for the next few hours but gave in to spring chicken craving for dinner.

My teeth hurts and Im suppose to be changing and getting ready for drinks at Movida with the girls. Jiu Wo~

Feel sad gotta leave Kenneth to find his own program. =( Sorry

All I need is Clothes & SHoes.

was feeling a little depressed this afternoon. Feeling a little upset bout some stuff. BOut life. Bout work. Im not really draggin my feet to work every morning, but I really need a break from work. From school. From all the bullshit around me. I juz wish to be somewhere quiet, with no worries, reading my book with warm sunlight on my face, ice cold beer. No worries bout money, bout work stuff, bout school.... I need to get away from my life. I need to be alone. Of course, I would not mind to have someone by my side that I can lean on and lay my head on his shoulder.
I was looking at my work schedule and there was no way I could getaway anytime soon. And I got even more depressed.
So I thought about clothes.... And how I would feel and look in them, and SERIOUSLY... I started to feel better. Clothes and shoes can really comfort me and do wonders bout my depression. It was amazing! I really really did not know that just thinking about clothes could make feel so warm and peaceful. Yeah, I know im crazy. I never said I was normal anyways.
I love my clothes and Im addicted. I need more.

This week is passing way too slowly. Its only Tues. Damn.
Feeling super sian to be back at work. But at least I get to watch little nonya. =)
Im soooooo waiting for Christmas. I can't wait for the superb dinner at MaMa's place.
Was invited to Kimberly and Kayla's birthday party on the 27th and it falls exactly on Kenneth's birthday. Was wondering what should we do, cuz Ken & I both adore Kayla to bits, so skipping her birthday was not a solution, Aunt Sharon simply asked Kenneth to celebrate with the girls. LOL~
I kept laughing cuz the party would be so girly and princessy, and Kenneth would be celebrating his birthday with a Barbie doll cake and 7 candles!!
Hilarious~!!

Bleah

ZoukOut yesterday was not exactly what I expected it to be. Nothing went according to plan and I did NOT have a lot of fun. But I overall it was juz okay...... Met and hung out with people I like, and some I do not like.
ZoukOut started off with bad communication, lots of waiting, hunger pains and feeling irriated. Was asked to go down earlier to rest in the hotel room, which was the plan. Ended up stuck in traffic jams and reaching Sentosa only bout 7++.
Chilling out in the room was probably the most enjoyable part of the whole entire nite and also hanging out Ian, he's cool. When headed down to ZoukOut, I was so irritated by fucking fat and sweaty people bumping me all over. And some asshole grabbed my ass while I was trying to make my way through the crowds. Seeing some people faces just spoilt my whole entire mood. I started to get bored and sat somewhere to drink and people watch. When deciding to go dance and enjoy the music, I was bombarded with people with fucking bad BO that made me feel like vomiting, and while holding my breath to prevent smelling their BO, I felt like fainting from the lack of oxygen. I gave up becuase the music was crap and headed back to the room to rest. Few of us hung out in the room till bout 5 plus and Kenneth knocked out, Jason was feeling ill. After resting for quite some time, we decided to go down to give ZoukOut one more try.
Met secondary school fren at the Main Arena but was not in a socialising mood so made a quick 'nice to see u and bye bye' . Stayed a while later and finally made it out of Sentosa around 7+ with the whole group in tow.

It is definitely the worst ZoukOut I ever experienced thanx to people who spoilt my mood. Very Fat people. They should juz stay at home. They do not add any value to the scenary and take up way too much space.

WooooWeeeeHoooooo

FINALLY!!

One more sem to go. But in the mean time, Im gonna enjoy the holidays before school starts next year. Starting with ZoukOut tomorrow! Wheeee.........
Happy dayz and happy time.

p/s Baby thanks for being so patient during my madness & sian-ness period. And for buying breakfast, lunch and dinner for me everyday. Muacks.
p/s FJ, Im super jealous of u lor..................................U better clear this sem.